Clarification on "walls closing in"

From the comments/emails I have received today, thank you for the support btw, it was obvious that I was not clear enough this morning with my emotions to get my point across. This is not about the 2 pounds I gained. This is about food. This is about not feeling I am in a place to get what I need in the way I need. Yes weight is the downstream result of that, but it is a loss of control over my food situation that is the root of how I feel right now.