My going away presents....

Packing is done, went to the club early this morning and did my last cardio workout before I leave (ouch, still very sore from trainer time yesterday) and while I was there I jumped on the scale (not supposed to do it, but I had to). Two more pounds from yesterday, plus the couple I had lost since Saturday, and I am a VERY happy camper.

To catch everyone up, I started at 338 pounds in May, I was 311 when I started with Gui at the end of November (Black Friday to be exact - yeah some good jokes in that I am sure). Today I was 265! That means overall I am down 73 lbs since May and 46 of that  in the 16 or so weeks I have been with the trainer.

I wouldn't be me if I didn't admit I was slightly unhappy with the number, I had set a goal of 75 lbs for this trip, but I can't be upset about it. I would NEVER have thought I could accomplish what I have. And as long as I hit the 75 by my birthday I am good with it all.

I think my shopping trip last night did a LOT to help me be ok with it. Last week the trainer asked me a question, and I struggled to get the answer he wanted from me. He asked if I could look great in a bikini but the scale still said 269 would I be ok with it. The true answer I felt was no, but I know that wasn't the answer he was going for, but it was how I felt. That number is such a block for me.

But last night, for a short time, it just didnt matter. I needed to go pick up a pair of pants for the trip. They are the same pants that in October I was wearing a 12x in. Last night I walked into the store and despite the sale girls insistance I was smaller than I thought, I started with a 4x - too big, a 3x - too big, a 2x - too big, a 1x - too big....I bought a 0x, which was the smallest size they are made in. I was ESTATIC.  I had a similar experience with the shirt I bought. And left the store in tears (happy tears).

I could not be leaving for this trip in a better frame of mind. My weight had really stagnated the last couple weeks, but thank to my amazing trainer (who changed my workouts back to heavy weight) I finally am moving forward again. This seems to happen every time we make that shift.

Laura is prepping everything for me in Israel, almond milk, blender, fridge. I have my list of assignments from Gui as far as working out (including a massage!!!!! Gotta love him!).

My suitcase is full of shorts and bathing suits (neither of which I would have willingly worn in public a year ago) and other new smaller clothes!

I feel ready and excited (admittedly still a little antsy about this long without the trainer). BRING IT ON!!!!!!


I promise to take lots of pics and will try to blog on this blog or my Israel one (will at least put links here to that blog).